Tuesday, June 26, 2018

My personal observations:
Women are realizing their strength, their worth, their super powers and 2018 is going to see a huge shift in the relationships of all kinds.
Women will not settle for less than what she deserves, earns or even wants.  You want her, you are going to have to step-up your game, you are going to have to pay her the same as any other person doing the same job reguardless of their gender, skin-color or sexual-orientation, you are not gong to stand in the way of going after what she wants.
Women are leaving good partners because they are not taking care of their own business.  You can be attentive, loving, accommodating, but if you are not taking your own life serious, she isn’t going to take you serious.  She needs a partner that is atleast her equal.  Someone with confidence and a plan for the future.
Women are leaving good jobs behind because they aren’t willing to settle for less pay, sexual inequality or sexual harassment.  She is making her own way, deciding her own income abilities and being her own boss.  She’s not saying “me too”, she is stating “no more”.
Women are realizing they can want more out of life and receive it. She has an international support system.  She has the same resources as any other human to go for what she wants.
She has the strength to walk away from the things that do not serve her purpose and make room for the things that do.
She knows she is worthy of all the blessings she could dream of ever wanting or needing.
She has the super-power to go for it all.

(I was moved or led to write this post in January, I came back to it a few times and added to it and still felt there was more to say-after spending so much time with such amazing females this weekend, I believe it is perfect the way it is and ready for public consumption)

Friday, June 15, 2018

Whew!  What a ride!
Thank you all for the kind words, thoughts, prayers, mojo, hugs etc. you all made it better.
The night before my check engine light came on, I woke up early the next morning and took it in to the dealership hoping it was because I was a bit past due on an oil change.  It wasn't.
They changed my oil and checked why my light was on.  I already knew I needed knew brakes from the previous time I was there.  Now I needed some major repairs for something that could not be explain to me why I needed them, why those things were worn out or leaking or whatever the diagnosis was at the time but I needed them.  The quote, including the brakes knocked the wind out of me.  I also need new tires pretty soon too.
I left, upset, and just plain mad at the world.  I had not eaten all morning and it took way longer than I had.  I was late, late for work and my boss had already called once after I had checked in to let him know I would be late.  I had not had any caffeine and I wanted my apple, which was at work in Jacksonville.  I was rude to the people at the dealership, I was rude to the first poor soul that called my phone.  I was just bent out of shape.
Money trigger, I have been working with a healer on those issues but I am no where in the place I want to be with that at all.  Yesterday reminded me of my lacking. 
It's not that I don't have the resources to repair and maintain my vehicle, which my sister-in-law so kindly reminded me yesterday.  It is not where I wanted my resources to go.  I even got a second opinion from a trusted source who said, git r dun. 
Anywho, I tried to shake off the BAD mood, Bad moment, BAD attitude with everything I knew to do.  I walked outside in the sunshine, I posted on Facebook and got lots of love from y'all, I ate good, got my caffeine on and just tried to occupy myself with work, went for some self-care and whatever.  None of it penetrated the "i am sulking and that is just that" mood I was in.  I cried like five times at work. I was short with people, I just was not my normal self. 
Then I just embraced being in a mood.  I did apologize to as many people as I could that might have come across me yesterday.  Tried to limit my interactions.  Just let it go and let it out.  Told myself tomorrow is a new day. I even watched as I drug someone else's energy level down to mine, I did apologize and tried to fake it, just wasn't happening. 
I share all this and I shared on Facebook yesterday, not for sympathy but for education of sorts.  We all will have bad moments, bad days, bad weeks, etc.  We can try to reduce the time or we can just go with it and try to do minimal damage to our surroundings.  Either way, you are not alone in this.  I want you to know you are loved at your most unlovable because that is not who you are, you are loved for you.  So have your pity parties, tantrums, sulkings and the like and if you need to share, come share with me.  I get it.
I want to again thank you for all of you who lifted me up yesterday.  Thank you for not judging me on the one moment, however long it was and thank you for giving me another chance to sparkle!
Today is a new day and the circumstance has not changed, I still have to repair my vehicle but my attitude sure is a lot better today.  I put the top down on the way to work, I came in early to make up the time I missed and I gave some money to charity!
I don't regret yesterday, I am not going to beat myself up for having a bad day.  It is what it is. 
Today is today and no better day to have a great day.
Thank you for taking this journey with me.  I love my tribe.  I love my life.  I am grateful and blessed.